Clearing My Throat:
I’m not one to spread my business or anyone else’s, but I need to get some things off my chest. I never talk about my personal life to anyone, and this will probably never happen again, so I’m gonna rant right now.

Before I start, remember that these are MY experiences with the people that I chose not to name. Don’t form your opinion of them off of mine, because every situation is different. 


I’m really nice/naïve and a sensitive person(which I’m working on), so when someone hurts me, I take it hard and do everything in my power to forget about that person (this applies to friends, strangers, and family members). I never aim to hurt people…..I probably try TOO hard to make people happy. 

For the longest time I kept ending up with REALLY shitty people in my life. I had to learn each lesson about life, other people, and myself through mistakes and unfortunate events that were out of my control. 

I wasted 3 years on what I told myself was friendship that would get better one day. My real personality is shining through again: I’m definitely a much more positive, friendly, and goal-oriented person when I’m not around someone who has no common courtesy, does nothing but talk shit, and always has an excuse for why they’re not doing anything with their life (b/c of course nothing is ever their fault -_-). 

Now, I have friends who actually care. They give and don’t constantly take. They’re the ones who deserve all of the kindness that I have in my heart. They’re the ones who are worth fighting for. I’m doing even better than I was before, and the puzzle pieces are falling into place :)

To you: Our “friendship” had no real foundation: It was just bad jokes,double standards,&negativity;ALL THE TIME! I don’t need or want you in my life, and I’m sure that you feel the same way about me. I really do hope that you get your life together one day, but as each day goes by, I start to care less and less. You have more problems than I can deal with, and I can’t bother bending backwards for someone so ungrateful…..so deuces. Here’s a tip: thank the people who are still in your life and return the favors that they do for you before they leave too.

To the other “friends” who have been in my life: I was nothing but nice until you gave me a reason to become a bitch. Don’t come back around this time thinking that your empty apologies will salvage anything. 

To my extended “family”: You’re nonexistent. The only family that I’ve ever had is my mom, my little brother, my stepdad, and my aunt (RIP).

I’m not Dr. Phil, I’m not Captain Save-A-Hoe, I’m not the friend who’s okay with being put on the back burner and picked up when you find time (have nothing else to do), I’m not a trophy to show off to your friends every couple of years when they ask, “Where’s your granddaughter?”, I’m not the daughter whose life you can accidentally come back into after my mom did all the work for 18 years, I’m not your friend behind closed doors and an acquaintance in public, I’m not your punching bag for jokes to mask your own insecurities and hateration, I won’t downgrade my fortunate life to make you feel better, you can’t use me, and this isn’t Single White Female: don’t try to steal my identity b/c you have no personality. Karma is INDEED a bitch to those who treat her like one, and you’ll reap what you sow!


I’m not right all the time, but I try hard to do good and be the person that I want to be. I make mistakes (which I’m sorry for), but I’m a good friend. I’m a good person, and I deserve nothing but the best.